i am not sure yet what i am supposed to do or feel tomorrow. i am going to go to church with a friend and light a candle just as i did last year. i really don't want to watch t.v. but i probably will in the early morning.

oh i don't know. i have found myself reevaluting my life lately. it is quite annoying. i wish i could just live my life instead of thinking of my every move or feeling like i am in some sort of therapy session.

i guess things will come together as far as my personal life and relationship goes. there are far more worse things in the world.

tonight i recreated a great friendship that i made. we had been drifting for awhile and tonight we hashed it all out and really came to terms with alot of things. i am very happy about that. i don't want anymore negativity or drama in this friendship. it truely love this person and respect and trust her. tonight many secrets were told. my lips are sealed and so are hers.

sorry for this blabber. i must have felt the need for an entry of some sort.

written at 3:00 a.m.